"You Never Have To Feel This Way Again"
Well, I am home after a pretty powerful day of recovery! I was expecting it to be a good day, but it turned out to be better, and LONGER than I anticipated. Today I was basically surrounded with recovery from noon until 8:00 PM. So, now I am sitting here listening to some nice background music from www.12stepradio.com and thinking about how to share such a great day in under 1000 words. I of course will not be able to do it justice, but I might be able to provide at least a flavor.
If you read this morning's posting than you already know I was headed to a celebration meeting/potluck for FIVE (3 men and 2 women) members of GA celebrating from between one year and twenty years free from gambling. I also said, I expected a little bit of a crowd, but we had 70 people there!
There was great food everywhere. All six celebrants were beaming with pride, crying at times with happiness and joy, and providing me and others present with additional tools to aid us in not placing a bet for the day. We also had the fortunate experience of sharing in the no less important milestones of a couple of other women that attend this meeting. One was celebrating 60 days of abstinence, and the other was celebrating 6 months since her last bet.
The only thing we were missing was a newcomer, and sometimes that is ok. It allows the meeting to have a little lighter tone.
One of the great things about these celebration meetings is that there are often family members present. Today was no exception. Mothers, in-laws, friends, granddaughters, sisters daughters, girlfriends, husbands and wives were all there today. You see, we learn quickly that we affect those around us more than we realize (Today there is an especially poignant reminder of this in the Betting Your Life Blog). So, when they cry at the progress their loved ones have made it touches us all.
The meeting was filled with an almost continuous laugh. We joked, roasted, and jabbed back and forth at the celebrants and ourselves. In between there was an amazing amount of recovery shared. I could go on forever sharing each and every tid bit, but one reminder from one of our trustees summed up the entire tone of the meeting for me. He shared about at one of his first GA meetings twenty years ago as he was crying and beaten. Someone took him aside and said:
"After today, you never have to feel the way you do now again."
Today's meeting reminded me of that over and over.
So, what did most of us do after a 4 hour meeting? Went to another one, and then dinner afterwards! Good stuff, but I am tired!